Sunday, 22 October 2017

Why Do You Blog?


I need to write and I need to create. I always have. As a child, I had countless diaries where I'd write down my worries and problems. I started writing about 20 different novels and if I wasn't doing that, I was sketching or making little videos with my friends, writing down the lyrics so I could learn my favourite songs or writing my own songs! I am a creative person, that's just how my mind works.

Now, whether I'm writing fiction, blog posts, novel ideas, to do lists, I am constantly writing. I have to write to work things out in my own head, to remember thoughts or events and, recently, to inspire or reassure others - that's where blogging comes in for me. It just seemed like an obvious route to go down.

Being creative and helping people have always been my two career goals. I really deliberated over whether to go into a profession in healthcare or pursue my love of English at university when it was time for me to decide what I wanted to do with my life. It didn't seem an option that I could do both! Blogging gives me both, though. I can be as creative and thoughtful as I like and I can help other people by sharing my experiences.

I've always told myself that as long as I've helped one person by writing about my thoughts or experiences, that blogging will be worth while. Lately, however, I feel like I've been forgotten that a bit. I've found myself fixated on the numbers. How many people have viewed my post? How many people have followed my Instagram account after reading? I haven't posted on Instagram in a while and my followers have gone down! Why didn't anyone comment on that post?

My blog is probably doing the best it ever has at the moment (which is literally nothing compared to the millions of other people that have massively well established, successful blogs) and I think that is down to the time and effort I have put into it lately. It's crazy how you can see the difference when you just put a little more work into blogging. This, however, has made me obsessed with the numbers and I hate it.

That's why I'm writing this post, to remind myself why I actually blog

Do I blog for attention? No. So why worry about who's reading it? Do I blog so I will get more random (probably fake) Instagram accounts to follow me? No way! So stop looking at the numbers of followers (if you asked me a month ago how many followers I had, I honestly would have had no idea). Do you blog so brands contact you? No! I never thought it would get to that stage. So stop checking your emails to see if any have.

I am being really honest with you all about how easy it is to forget why you started something. I don't want to become driven by success and following and money so I'm not going to let myself. I'm going to carry on writing what I want to write about and sharing it with you all in case at least one of you feels reassured or can relate to what I'm saying.

I love blogging and I've recently started vlogging which I have found I'm enjoying just as much! Both are such great ways for me to use my creative energy and also act as great journals for different points in my life. I don't do it enough, but going back and reading an old blog post is really cathartic to see how much you've changed or how trivial a problem you had a year ago seems now. It's reassuring to see that you can work through any problem you get and come out the other side of it.

So I'm not going to let myself feel the pressure of 'not being the best' or 'not having the prettiest, most liked photo on Instagram' or my new blog post 'not getting as many views as the one before'. It's so easy to work yourself up and worry and care what other people think of you but I'm not going to let it happen, I've decided. My blog is for me and anyone who is positively affected by it. That's why I started it and that's still my main goal, focus and drive to writing it.

It is scary but nice to be able to be so honest with you all. I'd love to hear what you all think about social media pressure and whether you sometimes ever end up valuing yourself on how many likes or followers you have. I'm sure it's something that affects a lot of us and I'd really love to hear your thoughts on the subject.

Thanks for listening to me rant and off load as always!


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  1. OMG all the time! I hate that my social media can manipulate my head like that! Always super conscious of not letting likes and follows become my validation! Great blog girl xx

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    1. So easily done! I'm glad I'm not the only one! Thanks lovely :) xx

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